Everyone uses blogs in their own way.
Some for voicing their political beliefs, religious beliefs, ideas on health and nutrition, book reviews, jibberish, etc.
For me, it enables me to talk without talking.
Have you ever felt like there is so much more to you than the average person knows - but you're never sure how to share that part of you with them?
Well, that's what I use my blog for - sharing "me"! Whether I'm getting emotional, stating funny facts ("funny" according to me...haha), or stories about childhood, songs I like, movies I like, hobbies I have or want to have, WHATEVER!!! - that's the beauty of blogging. It doesn't matter what the hell you talk about - because who cares!!
I mean, it's not like the blog monster is going to pop out of my computer with his feelings hurt, or maybe feel offended, or bored to tears, or laughing his ass off at me (like my sister in an earlier blog entry...haha!) - it's like an "easy" friend to talk to. It's awesome!!
As an example of how awesome blogging is, I met up with an ex-coworker on Wednesday for lunch and we had a great visit. Near the end of the lunch I had mentioned that I had started blogging because working from home everyday is a bit "quiet" and boring and I needed some interaction (with my computer - wow! what is this world coming to...haha!).
So I gave her my blog URL on an old crumpled up Target receipt in my purse.
Then today, I (again) go to the mailbox (the most exciting part of a telecommuter's day) and check the mail and there's a card in the stack of junk mail addressed to me.
I think - it's not my birthday? Hmmm...then I notice my ex-coworker's name on the back, so I open it and you wouldn't believe it...
...it's a card that has a spring-like raised picture on the front with a little purple bird flying overhead - then when you open the card it reads...
"Hope you have a little song in your heart today."
It was such a nice thing to do! She noticed that in various parts of my blog it sounded like I was having a tough time - so she wanted to send some friendly cheer my way - HOW AWESOME IS THAT!
It's hard to find people like that in today's world. So thank you "ex-coworker" for sending a smile my way!
Friday, June 27, 2008
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
...and I thought I was a little strange - a whole group is clearly worse off!
People really do this - OMG!! Maybe it shouldn't make me laugh, but it does...haha!! A bunch of naked people standing/laying on a glacier...HAHA!! Was that act suppose to stop global warming - NOT!!! Hopefully they all earned at least some hot chocolate after that event!
Have You Ever Thought...
I was driving yesterday and had a random thought cross my mind (happens often), then I thought why don't I blog this thought and some others;) Enjoy!
1. Does everyone else see the same red/green/yellow, etc that I see? Or do we just assume it's all the same shade of the color because as a child we picked up a crayon - learned how to read the color name - then associated it with whatever color/shade we saw?
2. Why do people buy exercise equipment that says "results not typical"?
3. If clowns are suppose to be funny why are so many people scared of them?
4. What's the point of a car dealership survey if the salesman asks to fill it out himself in exchange for a free tank of gas?
5. If you smoke through kemo - shouldn't that be called suicide?
6. Shouldn't people who complain about how difficult a technology is to use - NOT use it? (article on the iPhone yesterday)
7. Do dreadlocks stink? haha! I've always wondered that:)
8. Did you know that Jack-in-the-Box is giving away 2 FREE taco's tomorrow (Thurs the 26th) if you show them a gas receipt? Hmmm...creative:) Meet you there!
9. When are you too old to trick-or-treat? I feel like I'm never too old for FREE candy!
10. (Radio ad from a real estate company) "We'll help you buy a house and if you're not satisfied within 18 months of purchase, we'll help you sell it"...WHAT????!!!!! No shit you'll help them sell it, you're a real estate company and you want to make money on the same home twice!
11. You know those reflectors on the road that run along the center and outside lines? Well, I bet blind people could drive if they used them as braille.
12. We're "Going Green"! Don't you wish you came up with something as stupid/simple as that and it went nationwide in moments?
13. Guess what the movie "The Happening" was about? Well, it never tells you, but "it" just keeps happening!...hahahaha!! (FYI...horrible horror flick!)
14. Why do people order a Big Mac, Large Fry and a DIET coke? If you're gonna go crazy and try to kill yourself with a Big Mac and Large Fry, be true to your suicide and get a real coke!!
15. Isn't it strange how two people can eat the same thing and as one person puts it in their mouth they are completely disgusted and the other is oooing and ahhhing over it? Shouldn't it taste the same to everyone?
16. You know what sucks? When you have a professor that's too smart to teach you something...what kind of crazy shit is that! haha! (I just finished statistics - and this man was WAY too smart to teach us...haha!)
17. How do you get to a point where your alarm goes off and you wake up thinking "I'm gonna rob a bank today at 2 o'clock"? I guess I don't quite have a criminal mind so I can't imagine waking up thinking "today's the day!"
18. Have you ever been in another room when all of a sudden you "felt" like someone just turned the TV on (even though you couldn't hear it)? I do all the time - I was told I have supernormal hearing from a doctor - whatever that means?
19. Assuming there is a heaven - wouldn't it be awesome if it was like the movie "What Dreams May Come"?
20. Does the Container store sell containers for your containers?
I'm sure I'll come up with more in the future - hopefully at least one of these at least made you laugh, if not think;)
Happy Hump Day!!
1. Does everyone else see the same red/green/yellow, etc that I see? Or do we just assume it's all the same shade of the color because as a child we picked up a crayon - learned how to read the color name - then associated it with whatever color/shade we saw?
2. Why do people buy exercise equipment that says "results not typical"?
3. If clowns are suppose to be funny why are so many people scared of them?
4. What's the point of a car dealership survey if the salesman asks to fill it out himself in exchange for a free tank of gas?
5. If you smoke through kemo - shouldn't that be called suicide?
6. Shouldn't people who complain about how difficult a technology is to use - NOT use it? (article on the iPhone yesterday)
7. Do dreadlocks stink? haha! I've always wondered that:)
8. Did you know that Jack-in-the-Box is giving away 2 FREE taco's tomorrow (Thurs the 26th) if you show them a gas receipt? Hmmm...creative:) Meet you there!
9. When are you too old to trick-or-treat? I feel like I'm never too old for FREE candy!
10. (Radio ad from a real estate company) "We'll help you buy a house and if you're not satisfied within 18 months of purchase, we'll help you sell it"...WHAT????!!!!! No shit you'll help them sell it, you're a real estate company and you want to make money on the same home twice!
11. You know those reflectors on the road that run along the center and outside lines? Well, I bet blind people could drive if they used them as braille.
12. We're "Going Green"! Don't you wish you came up with something as stupid/simple as that and it went nationwide in moments?
13. Guess what the movie "The Happening" was about? Well, it never tells you, but "it" just keeps happening!...hahahaha!! (FYI...horrible horror flick!)
14. Why do people order a Big Mac, Large Fry and a DIET coke? If you're gonna go crazy and try to kill yourself with a Big Mac and Large Fry, be true to your suicide and get a real coke!!
15. Isn't it strange how two people can eat the same thing and as one person puts it in their mouth they are completely disgusted and the other is oooing and ahhhing over it? Shouldn't it taste the same to everyone?
16. You know what sucks? When you have a professor that's too smart to teach you something...what kind of crazy shit is that! haha! (I just finished statistics - and this man was WAY too smart to teach us...haha!)
17. How do you get to a point where your alarm goes off and you wake up thinking "I'm gonna rob a bank today at 2 o'clock"? I guess I don't quite have a criminal mind so I can't imagine waking up thinking "today's the day!"
18. Have you ever been in another room when all of a sudden you "felt" like someone just turned the TV on (even though you couldn't hear it)? I do all the time - I was told I have supernormal hearing from a doctor - whatever that means?
19. Assuming there is a heaven - wouldn't it be awesome if it was like the movie "What Dreams May Come"?
20. Does the Container store sell containers for your containers?
I'm sure I'll come up with more in the future - hopefully at least one of these at least made you laugh, if not think;)
Happy Hump Day!!
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Neither Here Nor There - or anywhere!
First, enough with the debbie-downer entries I've written!! F#*$ sadness!! I'm over it!! (at least for today...haha!)
You know what I've realized being married has it's downfalls, but from the many single people I know, single life has it's downfalls too!
Being married is great in ways such as; you have someone to share your "life" with - someone who can understand almost every one of your emotions, knows every inch of your body as if it were their own, there is never an uncomfortable silence, you make twice as much income (haha), you have someone that is willing to rub your back forever (not all the time, but when it happens it's nice not having to figure out how to do that yourself), etc.
Although, I haven't been single in almost a decade I know many friends/acquaintences that are single, some have always lived in the single world, and some have become recently single. I don't think I've heard any of these people say anything good about it. They only show frustration, confusion and lonliness...with a bit of some good partying on the side to spice it up.
This is not only heard from women but also from some men. Is this what men think sometimes, "instead of putting all that work into another human being it's easier to just meet a girl, woo her, get laid, then stop. Wow, must be easy for men - or is it? Not sure. Not saying women are perfect, they do their fare share of hurting men - but since men don't fall head-over-heels as easy/often as women do - we notice mens wrong actions more often.
Here's an example story of someone meeting a new "guy";
"Tammy, look at this guy, isn't he hot!!" "Hell yea!" I reply. "We've been talking for a little while now and we seem perfect for each other". "That's awesome!" I reply. "So why do you think you two are so perfect?" I ask. "Well, we have soooooo much in common!" "Like what?" I ask. "For example, everything I like he says he likes too!" Whooaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa-nelly...STOP right there!
This is where you have to stop and realize that liking the same things is ALWAYS the case in the beginning of the "potential relationship". It's like when a male bird stands tall and ruffles his feathers in front of the female to impress her or woo her - it's two living things working with the laws of attraction. You've gotta put on some kind of show in the beginning to get the girl to even take a second look at you.
This is why they say you never really know someone until about 2 years down the road - you may know enough about them sooner if their NUTS!! haha!! Usually if the person seems awesome and they can still manage to be awesome for 2+ years then - if you've ever liked the idea of marriage - it would be safe to say that you two probably have a good fighting chance of making it work.
I have had the strongest marriage known to our circle of friends, I know this because people would always stop us to compliment us - but as I've experienced recently - even the strongest marriage can start to fail if it's not taken care of appropriately. That's not to say it can't be nursed back to health, but that's probably the true-ist test of the strength of the relationship.
Coming from a married woman (me) I can say there are parts of being single that sound appealing like; do what I want when I want with no reasoning as to why, I can have quiet time when I want it, etc.
But, then there's the part where it's an idle Tuesday, I'm lazy feeling and just want to snuggle with someone, and they're not there - and may never be there - and that's a pretty crappy thought or situation to deal with. I can see how it would be nice to be alone when you "want" to be alone, but what happens when you want to be with someone - do you go out on the town and meet the next pecker looking for a hole to camp out in, get woo'd too far, get laid, then go home feeling even worse than you did when you left your house. It's all seems so perplexing for singles.
Of course men are seen as a stud if he whore's out his "goodies", but women are sluts - what kind of stupid shit is that!!!
Men go home after a night like that and think "hell yea, look at me, I'm the man! I can always get a girl to screw...woohooo!!
A girl goes home thinking; "wow, if he would just call me back and show additional interest then I won't feel like a slut, I'll feel like a girl trying to have a relationship".
Now you see why girls want you to call back - they can justify their actions if he continues being interested. So guys, at least go out with her one or two more times, then let her go - this way she can justify to herself and anyone she's told that she tried to make it work, but it didn't.
Men and women are clearly different creatures, but they're different in the perfect way! That's why we long for each other.
To all you singles out there; everyone wants to feel attractive (male or female) and the opposite sex is great at making us feel that way - so it's not all bad that we're impressing each other in the beginning - if all you have ultimately is the beginning, at least you had that moment of feeling really attractive and good about yourself.
Hey, maybe that's why some people always stay single, because they like the initial attraction so much that they don't want it to get old...hmmm?
Just thought I'd blab for a while. If you were bored - so what! haha!
You know what I've realized being married has it's downfalls, but from the many single people I know, single life has it's downfalls too!
Being married is great in ways such as; you have someone to share your "life" with - someone who can understand almost every one of your emotions, knows every inch of your body as if it were their own, there is never an uncomfortable silence, you make twice as much income (haha), you have someone that is willing to rub your back forever (not all the time, but when it happens it's nice not having to figure out how to do that yourself), etc.
Although, I haven't been single in almost a decade I know many friends/acquaintences that are single, some have always lived in the single world, and some have become recently single. I don't think I've heard any of these people say anything good about it. They only show frustration, confusion and lonliness...with a bit of some good partying on the side to spice it up.
This is not only heard from women but also from some men. Is this what men think sometimes, "instead of putting all that work into another human being it's easier to just meet a girl, woo her, get laid, then stop. Wow, must be easy for men - or is it? Not sure. Not saying women are perfect, they do their fare share of hurting men - but since men don't fall head-over-heels as easy/often as women do - we notice mens wrong actions more often.
Here's an example story of someone meeting a new "guy";
"Tammy, look at this guy, isn't he hot!!" "Hell yea!" I reply. "We've been talking for a little while now and we seem perfect for each other". "That's awesome!" I reply. "So why do you think you two are so perfect?" I ask. "Well, we have soooooo much in common!" "Like what?" I ask. "For example, everything I like he says he likes too!" Whooaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa-nelly...STOP right there!
This is where you have to stop and realize that liking the same things is ALWAYS the case in the beginning of the "potential relationship". It's like when a male bird stands tall and ruffles his feathers in front of the female to impress her or woo her - it's two living things working with the laws of attraction. You've gotta put on some kind of show in the beginning to get the girl to even take a second look at you.
This is why they say you never really know someone until about 2 years down the road - you may know enough about them sooner if their NUTS!! haha!! Usually if the person seems awesome and they can still manage to be awesome for 2+ years then - if you've ever liked the idea of marriage - it would be safe to say that you two probably have a good fighting chance of making it work.
I have had the strongest marriage known to our circle of friends, I know this because people would always stop us to compliment us - but as I've experienced recently - even the strongest marriage can start to fail if it's not taken care of appropriately. That's not to say it can't be nursed back to health, but that's probably the true-ist test of the strength of the relationship.
Coming from a married woman (me) I can say there are parts of being single that sound appealing like; do what I want when I want with no reasoning as to why, I can have quiet time when I want it, etc.
But, then there's the part where it's an idle Tuesday, I'm lazy feeling and just want to snuggle with someone, and they're not there - and may never be there - and that's a pretty crappy thought or situation to deal with. I can see how it would be nice to be alone when you "want" to be alone, but what happens when you want to be with someone - do you go out on the town and meet the next pecker looking for a hole to camp out in, get woo'd too far, get laid, then go home feeling even worse than you did when you left your house. It's all seems so perplexing for singles.
Of course men are seen as a stud if he whore's out his "goodies", but women are sluts - what kind of stupid shit is that!!!
Men go home after a night like that and think "hell yea, look at me, I'm the man! I can always get a girl to screw...woohooo!!
A girl goes home thinking; "wow, if he would just call me back and show additional interest then I won't feel like a slut, I'll feel like a girl trying to have a relationship".
Now you see why girls want you to call back - they can justify their actions if he continues being interested. So guys, at least go out with her one or two more times, then let her go - this way she can justify to herself and anyone she's told that she tried to make it work, but it didn't.
Men and women are clearly different creatures, but they're different in the perfect way! That's why we long for each other.
To all you singles out there; everyone wants to feel attractive (male or female) and the opposite sex is great at making us feel that way - so it's not all bad that we're impressing each other in the beginning - if all you have ultimately is the beginning, at least you had that moment of feeling really attractive and good about yourself.
Hey, maybe that's why some people always stay single, because they like the initial attraction so much that they don't want it to get old...hmmm?
Just thought I'd blab for a while. If you were bored - so what! haha!
Monday, June 23, 2008
Lost in Translation
What am I doing? Am I going up or down, left or right? I have no idea.
How long has it been since you've been on a night cruise - on a boat?
I just did last night.
The stars were bright, and the sky was dark. I was sitting on the left side of the boat, with one elbow hanging over the window, with my head comfortably positioned on top on my arm - I'm looking forward towards the bow of the boat, then I'd pan around to take in the panoramic view of the lake and hill country - it's beautiful! Just like the moment I went swinging and felt the wind through my hair - I also felt the wind blowing through my hair at this moment, but with much greater strength, so much strength that it was drowning out most of the sounds on the boat that I didn't care to hear anyway.
There was something so serene about that moment.
My first battle was tuning out the drunkin' obnoxious noise (don't get me wrong, I had a few heiny-lite's myself) which took some time, then once the hint was taken, it was wonderful!
It seems these days I have trouble hearing much more than the sound of a pin dropping. Anything more gives me a feeling of suffocation - probably because, although I'm not saying much of anything - which makes it appear as though I'm not thinking - it sounds like a punk-rock concert in my head. It takes a lot to drown out a punk-rock concert when you're standing at the front-center of the stage.
Have you ever layed in bed - when no one is home - with an almost perfectly quiet house - but it seems louder than it did with people there?
It's like the noise of other people doing random things helps to drown out some of the thought process - and then they leave and all you can do is think and think and think and think and think...
...It gives my brain more room to think/analyze/re-analyze and so on - which makes the conversation in my head frickin' LOUD!
When I got home last night and put my drunkin' partner to bed I was putting my pj's on - thinking, "I don't know what I'm doing - and that's sad".
How do you get a piece of yourself back that you've lost? Is there a book for that? Would staying in my relationship help? Would leaving my relationship help? Would teaching overseas for a few months help? Would time alone help? Would time with people help? Would therapy help? Would getting a new job help? Would swinging on more swings or riding on more boats help?
Not sure.
Ok, I guess that was a peak into the heart, brains and body of me (at this time). I'm normally a glass-half-full type person - I'm not usually so sad sounding, but as soon as I figure out the perfect medicine to cure my ailment, I'll be back in business! 'Til then, see you on the lake! (or swings since they're easier to get to).
How long has it been since you've been on a night cruise - on a boat?
I just did last night.
The stars were bright, and the sky was dark. I was sitting on the left side of the boat, with one elbow hanging over the window, with my head comfortably positioned on top on my arm - I'm looking forward towards the bow of the boat, then I'd pan around to take in the panoramic view of the lake and hill country - it's beautiful! Just like the moment I went swinging and felt the wind through my hair - I also felt the wind blowing through my hair at this moment, but with much greater strength, so much strength that it was drowning out most of the sounds on the boat that I didn't care to hear anyway.
There was something so serene about that moment.
My first battle was tuning out the drunkin' obnoxious noise (don't get me wrong, I had a few heiny-lite's myself) which took some time, then once the hint was taken, it was wonderful!
It seems these days I have trouble hearing much more than the sound of a pin dropping. Anything more gives me a feeling of suffocation - probably because, although I'm not saying much of anything - which makes it appear as though I'm not thinking - it sounds like a punk-rock concert in my head. It takes a lot to drown out a punk-rock concert when you're standing at the front-center of the stage.
Have you ever layed in bed - when no one is home - with an almost perfectly quiet house - but it seems louder than it did with people there?
It's like the noise of other people doing random things helps to drown out some of the thought process - and then they leave and all you can do is think and think and think and think and think...
...It gives my brain more room to think/analyze/re-analyze and so on - which makes the conversation in my head frickin' LOUD!
When I got home last night and put my drunkin' partner to bed I was putting my pj's on - thinking, "I don't know what I'm doing - and that's sad".
How do you get a piece of yourself back that you've lost? Is there a book for that? Would staying in my relationship help? Would leaving my relationship help? Would teaching overseas for a few months help? Would time alone help? Would time with people help? Would therapy help? Would getting a new job help? Would swinging on more swings or riding on more boats help?
Not sure.
Ok, I guess that was a peak into the heart, brains and body of me (at this time). I'm normally a glass-half-full type person - I'm not usually so sad sounding, but as soon as I figure out the perfect medicine to cure my ailment, I'll be back in business! 'Til then, see you on the lake! (or swings since they're easier to get to).
Friday, June 20, 2008
INFP - That's Me!
I just have to share...
There is a great site that offers a FREE comprehensive personality test (it almost writes a book about you). I found it incredibly interesting since it was 100% accurate (I thought anyway)!!
http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp
(link is also in the left margin of the blog)
I am categorized as an INFP personality. You might ask, what the hell does that mean (like I did), then I was told that I needed to Google "INFP" and it would pull a TON of information on that personality type - and it DID!! So much information I can't paste it all in this blog, for fear of boring you to tears. If you interested in seeing the full version, here are the links;
Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving (INFP)
http://typelogic.com/infp.html
Portrait of an INFP
http://www.personalitypage.com/INFP.html
INFP Personal Growth
http://www.personalitypage.com/INFP_per.html
Here are my scores for the 4 areas I'm categorized under;
Introverted = 89
iNtuitive = 62
Feeling = 12
Perceiving = 11
Here's a small dose of what the links above said about me - dun, dun, dun...
THE IDEALIST (I agree already...haha!!)
As an INFP, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit into your personal value system. Your secondary mode is external, where you take things in primarily via your intuition.
INFP's more than other iNtuitive Feeling types, are focused on making the world a better place for people. Their primary goal is to find out their meaning in life. What is their purpose? How can they best serve humanity in their lives? They are idealists and perfectionists, who drive themselves hard in their quest for achieving the goals they have identified for themselves.
INFP's are highly intuitive about people. They rely heavily on their intuitions to guide them, and use their discoveries to constantly search for value in life. They are on a continuous mission to find the truth and meaning underlying things. Every encounter and every piece of knowledge gained gets sifted through the INFP's value system, and is evaluated to see if it has any potential to help the INFP define or refine their own path in life. The goal at the end of the path is always the same - the INFP is driven to help people and make the world a better place.
Generally thoughtful and considerate, INFP's are good listeners and put people at ease. Although they may be reserved in expressing emotion, they have a very deep well of caring and are genuinely interested in understanding people. This sincerity is sensed by others, making the INFP a valued friend and confidante. An INFP can be quite warm with people he or she knows well.
INFP's do not like conflict, and go to great lengths to avoid it. If they must face it, they will always approach it from the perspective of their feelings. In conflict situations, INFP's place little importance on who is right and who is wrong. They focus on the way that the conflict makes them feel, and indeed don't really care whether or not they're right. They don't want to feel badly. This trait sometimes makes them appear irrational and illogical in conflict situations. On the other hand, INFP's make very good mediators, and are typically good at solving other people's conflicts, because they intuitively understand people's persepectives and feelings, and genuinely want to help them.
INFP's are flexible and laid-back, until one of their values is violated. In the face of their value system being threatened, INFP's can become aggressive defenders, fighting passionately for their cause. When an INFP has adopted a project or job which they're interested in, it usually becomes a "cause" for them. Although they are not detail-oriented individuals, they will cover every possible detail with determination and vigor when working for their "cause".
(a snip-it below fit perfectly since I've always wanted to teach - and will be teaching overseas within the next year)
*INFP's also appear frequently in social service professions, such as counselling or teaching*
There is a great site that offers a FREE comprehensive personality test (it almost writes a book about you). I found it incredibly interesting since it was 100% accurate (I thought anyway)!!
http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp
(link is also in the left margin of the blog)
I am categorized as an INFP personality. You might ask, what the hell does that mean (like I did), then I was told that I needed to Google "INFP" and it would pull a TON of information on that personality type - and it DID!! So much information I can't paste it all in this blog, for fear of boring you to tears. If you interested in seeing the full version, here are the links;
Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving (INFP)
http://typelogic.com/infp.html
Portrait of an INFP
http://www.personalitypage.com/INFP.html
INFP Personal Growth
http://www.personalitypage.com/INFP_per.html
Here are my scores for the 4 areas I'm categorized under;
Introverted = 89
iNtuitive = 62
Feeling = 12
Perceiving = 11
Here's a small dose of what the links above said about me - dun, dun, dun...
THE IDEALIST (I agree already...haha!!)
As an INFP, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit into your personal value system. Your secondary mode is external, where you take things in primarily via your intuition.
INFP's more than other iNtuitive Feeling types, are focused on making the world a better place for people. Their primary goal is to find out their meaning in life. What is their purpose? How can they best serve humanity in their lives? They are idealists and perfectionists, who drive themselves hard in their quest for achieving the goals they have identified for themselves.
INFP's are highly intuitive about people. They rely heavily on their intuitions to guide them, and use their discoveries to constantly search for value in life. They are on a continuous mission to find the truth and meaning underlying things. Every encounter and every piece of knowledge gained gets sifted through the INFP's value system, and is evaluated to see if it has any potential to help the INFP define or refine their own path in life. The goal at the end of the path is always the same - the INFP is driven to help people and make the world a better place.
Generally thoughtful and considerate, INFP's are good listeners and put people at ease. Although they may be reserved in expressing emotion, they have a very deep well of caring and are genuinely interested in understanding people. This sincerity is sensed by others, making the INFP a valued friend and confidante. An INFP can be quite warm with people he or she knows well.
INFP's do not like conflict, and go to great lengths to avoid it. If they must face it, they will always approach it from the perspective of their feelings. In conflict situations, INFP's place little importance on who is right and who is wrong. They focus on the way that the conflict makes them feel, and indeed don't really care whether or not they're right. They don't want to feel badly. This trait sometimes makes them appear irrational and illogical in conflict situations. On the other hand, INFP's make very good mediators, and are typically good at solving other people's conflicts, because they intuitively understand people's persepectives and feelings, and genuinely want to help them.
INFP's are flexible and laid-back, until one of their values is violated. In the face of their value system being threatened, INFP's can become aggressive defenders, fighting passionately for their cause. When an INFP has adopted a project or job which they're interested in, it usually becomes a "cause" for them. Although they are not detail-oriented individuals, they will cover every possible detail with determination and vigor when working for their "cause".
(a snip-it below fit perfectly since I've always wanted to teach - and will be teaching overseas within the next year)
*INFP's also appear frequently in social service professions, such as counselling or teaching*
A WOOP WOOP!!
...THIS GOES ON AND ON AND ON...I'm telling you, it's so true! It's awesome to read something that describes you so well...it helps you define the way you react to life, people, events, etc.
You should really do yours! If you're not too bashful, you can comment and leave your 4 letter code as the comment, because I'd love to learn about you! Brandie, I know you'll definitely participate, you love these things as much as I do;)
Come on chickens! Lets see how YOU do on the test - haha! At least you can't fail - or maybe you can, haha!!
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Strange Thought...
Yesterday Timothy and I went to Mt. Bonnell in hopes to see the oversized moon that is suppose to appear over the next couple of days- but it ended up being too cloudy to see it:(
...but it was still nice to get out of this cave I call home.
So we're driving home, heading down Mt. Bonnell Rd. to 2222 and as I'm watching us drive down this winding road my brain decides to have a totally random thought...
"that would suck to die today because I feel like there is something more to this life than what I've done up-to this point"...then I thought "whoa, where did that come from?- I've always felt satisfied with where I was in my life".
I mean;
I'm still young-ish
I almost, finally have my Bachelor's degree (after almost 7 years)
I've become a quilter (photo-quilts)
I'm learning piano (which I love)
I've been in a committed relationship for almost 9 years
I have a little dog (named Zena)
No kids (can't juggle school and kids - and now I'm thinking about getting my Master's)
Suddenly, all of those things that seemed so perfect are not that perfect anymore, it's crazy?
Before now, that was a fairly satisfying to have the american dream but now, I want to LIVE...like finish my degree - go teach English overseas for 6+ mos. - continue applying for roles in independent films, and anything else my lil' heart desires!
Anywho, just had to share my random thought - since my blog IS titled "Thoughts" - haha!
...but it was still nice to get out of this cave I call home.
So we're driving home, heading down Mt. Bonnell Rd. to 2222 and as I'm watching us drive down this winding road my brain decides to have a totally random thought...
"that would suck to die today because I feel like there is something more to this life than what I've done up-to this point"...then I thought "whoa, where did that come from?- I've always felt satisfied with where I was in my life".
I mean;
I'm still young-ish
I almost, finally have my Bachelor's degree (after almost 7 years)
I've become a quilter (photo-quilts)
I'm learning piano (which I love)
I've been in a committed relationship for almost 9 years
I have a little dog (named Zena)
No kids (can't juggle school and kids - and now I'm thinking about getting my Master's)
Suddenly, all of those things that seemed so perfect are not that perfect anymore, it's crazy?
Before now, that was a fairly satisfying to have the american dream but now, I want to LIVE...like finish my degree - go teach English overseas for 6+ mos. - continue applying for roles in independent films, and anything else my lil' heart desires!
Anywho, just had to share my random thought - since my blog IS titled "Thoughts" - haha!
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
The Meaning?
I love tornadoes!!! Okay, maybe I don’t like them enough to rip my home apart, or my body for that matter – but I LOVE the adrenaline that gets pumped through my veins when an intense storm is coming through.
You’re probably thinking, well that’s a random topic for the blog, well not really since I had a dream last night where I was caught in the path of a nest of tornadoes…woohoo! I didn’t want to wake up – the dream was way too exciting to wake up and face the cruel world awaiting me :(
I guess Larry was at work archiving some of my files. Read an older blog is you don’t know Larry yet.
So I’m dreaming I’m with my mom (away from home) when all of a sudden I look out the window and see a dark blackish-blue sky all around us. I tell her “come on – we'd better head back to the house so we’ll be there before the storm hits”.
Then POOF! (Larry grabs the “we’re home” file) and now we’re standing at her front door and she’s crouched down trying to get the key in the keyhole – and I’m crouched behind her thinking “hurry, hurry” it's almost here! Then I look behind us and I see a HUGE twister only about 200 yards away!!
As I increasingly feel stressed, I stop to tell myself to take a deep breath and chill (that was a weird part to me – because I even talk to myself in my dreams…HAHAHA!!), so I take a deep breath, and let it out…ahhhhh – then WALAH the door opens! Then we rush in, close the door behind us and run for cover!
In the dream we were in a cellar (my mom doesn’t even have a cellar…haha!) and the tornado rips through the house, right over our heads - the noise it made was ear piercing, and we just kept crouching low and tight hoping that we wouldn't get sucked away! Then silence. We’re alive…that was AWESOME!!!
Come to find out Larry (the guy in my head) put a blanket over our heads instead of the cellar…haha!! Larry is goofy sometimes :)
So we remove the blanket from our heads…haha…and then I look out the window and I see three more tornadoes swirling in a group all over the open field outside! Holy shit! This, again…is AWESOME!!
Not sure what happened to those tornadoes (I guess Larry dropped the file)? – but – now all of the open land is flooded and rescue boats are cruising out to help all the people that are alive outside – swimming. Needless to say, we survived.
Tornado chasing - wouldn't that be fun!!
Here is what http://www.dreammoods.com/ thinks;
Tornadoes
To see a tornado in your dream, suggests that you are experiencing some extreme emotional outbursts and temper tantrums. Is there a situation or relationship in your life that may be potentially destructive?
To dream that you are in a tornado, signifies that you are feeling overwhelmed and out of control. You will be met with a series of disappointments for the nexxt week or so. Your plans will be filled with complications.
To see several tornadoes in your dream, represents people around you who are prone to violent outbursts and shifting mood swings. It may also symbolize a volatile situation or relationship.
Hmmmm…interesting.
“Okay kids, class is over - any questions on tornadoes or how jacked up Miss Tammy is?”
You’re probably thinking, well that’s a random topic for the blog, well not really since I had a dream last night where I was caught in the path of a nest of tornadoes…woohoo! I didn’t want to wake up – the dream was way too exciting to wake up and face the cruel world awaiting me :(
I guess Larry was at work archiving some of my files. Read an older blog is you don’t know Larry yet.
So I’m dreaming I’m with my mom (away from home) when all of a sudden I look out the window and see a dark blackish-blue sky all around us. I tell her “come on – we'd better head back to the house so we’ll be there before the storm hits”.
Then POOF! (Larry grabs the “we’re home” file) and now we’re standing at her front door and she’s crouched down trying to get the key in the keyhole – and I’m crouched behind her thinking “hurry, hurry” it's almost here! Then I look behind us and I see a HUGE twister only about 200 yards away!!
As I increasingly feel stressed, I stop to tell myself to take a deep breath and chill (that was a weird part to me – because I even talk to myself in my dreams…HAHAHA!!), so I take a deep breath, and let it out…ahhhhh – then WALAH the door opens! Then we rush in, close the door behind us and run for cover!
In the dream we were in a cellar (my mom doesn’t even have a cellar…haha!) and the tornado rips through the house, right over our heads - the noise it made was ear piercing, and we just kept crouching low and tight hoping that we wouldn't get sucked away! Then silence. We’re alive…that was AWESOME!!!
Come to find out Larry (the guy in my head) put a blanket over our heads instead of the cellar…haha!! Larry is goofy sometimes :)
So we remove the blanket from our heads…haha…and then I look out the window and I see three more tornadoes swirling in a group all over the open field outside! Holy shit! This, again…is AWESOME!!
Not sure what happened to those tornadoes (I guess Larry dropped the file)? – but – now all of the open land is flooded and rescue boats are cruising out to help all the people that are alive outside – swimming. Needless to say, we survived.
Tornado chasing - wouldn't that be fun!!
Here is what http://www.dreammoods.com/ thinks;
Tornadoes
To see a tornado in your dream, suggests that you are experiencing some extreme emotional outbursts and temper tantrums. Is there a situation or relationship in your life that may be potentially destructive?
To dream that you are in a tornado, signifies that you are feeling overwhelmed and out of control. You will be met with a series of disappointments for the nexxt week or so. Your plans will be filled with complications.
To see several tornadoes in your dream, represents people around you who are prone to violent outbursts and shifting mood swings. It may also symbolize a volatile situation or relationship.
Hmmmm…interesting.
“Okay kids, class is over - any questions on tornadoes or how jacked up Miss Tammy is?”
Saturday, June 14, 2008
The Perfect Man
If you could pick only one person in this world to survive through the end of the world with - who would it be? I definitely know my answer! Is there a special "one" person in your life that you will always hold on a pedestal,
...a person that you can't imagine living life without,
...a person that can bring tears to your eyes with only the thought of them,
...a person who makes you feel centered and at ease when they're around
...a person that loves McDonald's fish sandwiches as much as you do?
Well I definitely have that one person. My Dad!...the perfect man!
I may have a biased opinion since he is my father - but whatever the case he is my #1 love! If I was only allowed one person to trudge through life with, it would be him!! When people talk of unconditional love - that is exactly what we have.
I have put him through some tough times; like moving to Texas (from Michigan), having a crazy manipulative boyfriend that was introducing me to tons of "wrong" paths for about 4 years, etc. - but I thank him for being there for me and listening to my stories no matter how much he loved or hated hearing them. He has definitely always been there when I've needed him most!
He has worked so hard for his family and has provided us with the stability a family needs to grow and become successful! Even if he wasn't completely satisfied with the way things were going, he never gave up on the family!
My dad is a HUGE sports fan - so much so, that he and my sports finatic grandmother put me in hockey when I was 4 yrs. old...haha!! You should see the picture of me in my hockey gear - it's hilarious! I was the first child of my father's and everyone was anticipating a boy (with the name Reed...yuck...glad I was a girl...haha!), then I popped out and they thought - that'll work, just give her a hockey stick, skates and a helmet, she'll be fine! Well, until I busted my lip a half a dozen times on the metal chair I was pushing around the ice rink...haha! I would've rather learned to be the zamboni driver than the skater (don't know what a zamboni is - look it up). Needless to say, my hockey career abruptly ended. Lucky me, my dad had a son (Ryan) about 7 years later and he's been in hockey since he was 2 yrs. old (he's 21 now)...so my dad got his boy;)
I can also give him credit for making me ambidextrous (using both hands). I was born a lefty so I do all articulate activities with my left hand (writing, eating, etc.) but because my dad was always teaching/playing sports with me and since he is right-handed, I would copy his form in throwing baseballs, footballs, etc. which has made me right-handed in almost every sport (except shooting pool...I'm ambidextrous when I play pool - oooo, I must be good then, huh?...haha!).
Anywho, I was just thinking last night in bed, that if I could have one dream fulfilled (besides teaching English overseas) what would it be? - and it is most definitely to have my father closer than 1200-1400 miles away. If I could have any wish it would be to wish him to Texas!!!
Dad, this is for you (even though you don't know to read my blog...haha!)
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!
Friday, June 13, 2008
Do You Know These People...
This just crossed my mind this morning when I was on the Alamo Drafthouse website (love that place!) and I saw the ad for Rocky Horror Picture Show...
Isn't it strange that there is still a cult-like following that attends that movie on a regular basis, brings their props (newspapers, water guns, umbrella's, toilet paper, etc.), and watches the movie again and again - not to mention they know every word (pathetically), and can't help themselves but to talk through the entire movie?
Have you ever known one of these freaks?
Well...
Now you know one ;) Well I've actually only seen it at the theater once, about 5 years ago. I was raised watching horror movies (demented - I know) and somehow Rocky Horror Picture Show was introduced to me as a child and before I had time to hate it (because it's frickin' weird) I already loved it - and knew every word!
When I went to the theater 5 years ago - I heard that it was a fun experience and since I love doing random activities I figured I'd take my brother (who was also raised watching it) and we'd see how it was.
Well - it was HORRIBLE!!
It was a bunch of freaky teenagers looking for a place to belong in society - and low-and-behold this was their "place" in society - a weekly showing of the Rocky Horror Picture Show!!
...at the $1 theater, mind you.
They all came dressed in the costume of their favorite character and would get up in front of the movie screen and act out the part as it played on the big screen - annoying to say the least since I actually enjoy the original actors much more than these kids.
The worst part was when my favorite character Columbia (girl that has the hots for Meatloaf the biker) - was at least 150 pounds heavier than the actual Columbia and she came to the theater wearing a lingerie type bustier (black) and little lingerie black panties.
I'm not a shallow type, but when I have one picture of Columbia in my head - and then I throw 150+ lbs on her and keep her in the same outfit - it's enough to make you a lil' nauseous and embarrassed for the girl not realizing how "whoa" she looked.
As soon as we (my brother and I) see her walk out, we sink lower in our chairs in hopes that no one notices the halfway normal people sitting there laughing (with tears rolling down their faces) at her - I think we were laughing mostly due to being completely uncomfortable and 100% embarrassed for her.
"A poor young girl is blinded by her peers - and is somehow convinced that this was a great idea"
Needless to say, my brother and I left about halfway through the movie since it was killing us to sit there and try to watch one of our favorite movies with a group of crazies standing in front of the screen blocking the view, while toilet paper was being thrown through the room and hitting us on the head - over and over.
It's a horrible experience - unless you like being 100% distracted while watching a movie;) I do have to say - I give that girl some props for pretending no one's watching - but you wouldn't see me up there like that - you'd only see me dressed that way if you were my man, and I was being your bedroom canvas - not at a public theater for the world to see;)
(for the RHPS fans)
Time Warp Chorus
It's just a jump to the left,
and then you step to the riiigggghhht,
put your hands on your hips,
and bring your knees in tiiigghhht,
and do the pelvic thrust,
and then you drive it in-saaaannnee,
let's do the time-warp agaaaiiinnnn!!!!
HAPPY FRIDAY THE 13th!!!
In the spirit of this "scary" day - I'm going to see "The Happening" (horror flick that just came out today) at the theaters tonight...can't wait!
LUV HORROR MOVIES!!
Isn't it strange that there is still a cult-like following that attends that movie on a regular basis, brings their props (newspapers, water guns, umbrella's, toilet paper, etc.), and watches the movie again and again - not to mention they know every word (pathetically), and can't help themselves but to talk through the entire movie?
Have you ever known one of these freaks?
Well...
Now you know one ;) Well I've actually only seen it at the theater once, about 5 years ago. I was raised watching horror movies (demented - I know) and somehow Rocky Horror Picture Show was introduced to me as a child and before I had time to hate it (because it's frickin' weird) I already loved it - and knew every word!
When I went to the theater 5 years ago - I heard that it was a fun experience and since I love doing random activities I figured I'd take my brother (who was also raised watching it) and we'd see how it was.
Well - it was HORRIBLE!!
It was a bunch of freaky teenagers looking for a place to belong in society - and low-and-behold this was their "place" in society - a weekly showing of the Rocky Horror Picture Show!!
...at the $1 theater, mind you.
They all came dressed in the costume of their favorite character and would get up in front of the movie screen and act out the part as it played on the big screen - annoying to say the least since I actually enjoy the original actors much more than these kids.
The worst part was when my favorite character Columbia (girl that has the hots for Meatloaf the biker) - was at least 150 pounds heavier than the actual Columbia and she came to the theater wearing a lingerie type bustier (black) and little lingerie black panties.
I'm not a shallow type, but when I have one picture of Columbia in my head - and then I throw 150+ lbs on her and keep her in the same outfit - it's enough to make you a lil' nauseous and embarrassed for the girl not realizing how "whoa" she looked.
As soon as we (my brother and I) see her walk out, we sink lower in our chairs in hopes that no one notices the halfway normal people sitting there laughing (with tears rolling down their faces) at her - I think we were laughing mostly due to being completely uncomfortable and 100% embarrassed for her.
"A poor young girl is blinded by her peers - and is somehow convinced that this was a great idea"
Needless to say, my brother and I left about halfway through the movie since it was killing us to sit there and try to watch one of our favorite movies with a group of crazies standing in front of the screen blocking the view, while toilet paper was being thrown through the room and hitting us on the head - over and over.
It's a horrible experience - unless you like being 100% distracted while watching a movie;) I do have to say - I give that girl some props for pretending no one's watching - but you wouldn't see me up there like that - you'd only see me dressed that way if you were my man, and I was being your bedroom canvas - not at a public theater for the world to see;)
(for the RHPS fans)
Time Warp Chorus
It's just a jump to the left,
and then you step to the riiigggghhht,
put your hands on your hips,
and bring your knees in tiiigghhht,
and do the pelvic thrust,
and then you drive it in-saaaannnee,
let's do the time-warp agaaaiiinnnn!!!!
HAPPY FRIDAY THE 13th!!!
In the spirit of this "scary" day - I'm going to see "The Happening" (horror flick that just came out today) at the theaters tonight...can't wait!
LUV HORROR MOVIES!!
Monday, June 9, 2008
Crusties...
It is so interesting how everyone's brain and emotions create different reactions to things in life. The subconscience never fails to amuse me. I'm sure you've noticed yourself or someone else having a strange way of doing certain things - and you think "why do you do that?" Some people may call these instances - pet peeves OR hang-ups.
I'll admit I have a few;
One was pointed out to me last night. I finished my dinner and was craving a glass of ice-cold 1% milk. So...I grab the milk out of the fridge, grab a cup from the cupboard (or...cabinet), popped the lid off the milk jug, then discretely blew on the opening of the jug.
My sister-in-law starts busting out laughing and says "I thought you were about to take a drink from the jug!"...then I explained to her that I would never drink from the jug because of how disgusting it is! I mean, does she realize that the rim of jug opening is covered with little white crusties!!! I guess not. Then I clarify that I was just blowing the disgusting little crusties off the opening so they wouldn't fall into my milk.
Although I logically know it won't kill me to have crusties in my cup of milk, psychologically it grosses me out. Watch out for the crusties next time you poor your milk!!!
I guess we all know that I could never be a contestant on Fear Factor. They'd say "Ok Tammy, it's your turn. You've got 10 seconds to drink this glass of crustied milk - ready, set, go" which is then my opportunity to say "I'M OUT!! and you can shove that $50k up your (blank)!!!
A few others;
Eating my food in order (is it so horrible that I like to enjoy each individual item separately?)
Checking behind a shower curtain in an unfamiliar bathroom (some weirdo could be enjoying the sound of people using the restroom...gross!!)
Putting on the toilet paper roll so it rolls off from the top (duh! thousands of hotels know the right way, so maybe you should, haha!)
Folding the clothes as they come out of the dryer (not chunking the pile of clothes on the couch or bed and letting them get completely wrinkled - if you pull them out fresh and hot, then you'll save yourself the hassle of ironing - get it?)
What are your hang-ups?...and don't say you don't have any (because you do).
I'll admit I have a few;
One was pointed out to me last night. I finished my dinner and was craving a glass of ice-cold 1% milk. So...I grab the milk out of the fridge, grab a cup from the cupboard (or...cabinet), popped the lid off the milk jug, then discretely blew on the opening of the jug.
My sister-in-law starts busting out laughing and says "I thought you were about to take a drink from the jug!"...then I explained to her that I would never drink from the jug because of how disgusting it is! I mean, does she realize that the rim of jug opening is covered with little white crusties!!! I guess not. Then I clarify that I was just blowing the disgusting little crusties off the opening so they wouldn't fall into my milk.
Although I logically know it won't kill me to have crusties in my cup of milk, psychologically it grosses me out. Watch out for the crusties next time you poor your milk!!!
I guess we all know that I could never be a contestant on Fear Factor. They'd say "Ok Tammy, it's your turn. You've got 10 seconds to drink this glass of crustied milk - ready, set, go" which is then my opportunity to say "I'M OUT!! and you can shove that $50k up your (blank)!!!
A few others;
Eating my food in order (is it so horrible that I like to enjoy each individual item separately?)
Checking behind a shower curtain in an unfamiliar bathroom (some weirdo could be enjoying the sound of people using the restroom...gross!!)
Putting on the toilet paper roll so it rolls off from the top (duh! thousands of hotels know the right way, so maybe you should, haha!)
Folding the clothes as they come out of the dryer (not chunking the pile of clothes on the couch or bed and letting them get completely wrinkled - if you pull them out fresh and hot, then you'll save yourself the hassle of ironing - get it?)
What are your hang-ups?...and don't say you don't have any (because you do).
Saturday, June 7, 2008
Amelie (if you're interested)
This is a great Amelie glimse (it's not only a love story - it's about her corkiness, friendliness, and different view of the world. This movie is probably more for the girls, but guys could enjoy it too (I think)
Comptine d'un autre ete!
Song I hope to play in the future! Close your eyes and listen - it's beautiful!
Follow Your Desires...
This is for all of you out there that have dreams - or things you wish you would have done but now feel that you've missed out on...
I am almost 30 and have just picked up piano lessons. Some may say I'm too old to learn piano (because they're too afraid to try), but I don't feel that way. I took piano as a child but would get bored learning sheet music - I preferred to just sit at the piano and play by ear. Being an introverted, self-entertaining type, piano was something I could sit and spend hours figuring out and I didn't need any help doing it (which was great for me since I preferred to hang out by myself...haha!).
My grandmother (which passed away in '94) was a pianist and loved showing me how to play songs. Frequently while at her house - when I wasn't "falling down the stairs" - I would just sit at her piano and figure out childrens songs by ear - no sheet music. I would just play what I heard in my head. When my grandma noticed that I was figuring out these songs on my own she decided to get me piano lessons. I was soooo excited! But when the teacher would show up and make me do chord after chord I got bored. So after a few months (I don't remember how long) I quit - now I wish I would've stuck with it.
Regardless, I'm back!! This time I'm sticking with it! Even though I'm back to playing very basic songs, it's nice to finally be able to read "some" sheet music again and play even simple songs.
My hope is to play Comptine d'un autre ete by Yann Tiersen (He's AWESOME!!) within the next year or two...we'll see. I would love to hear someone play it - live - for me - I would most certainly melt. A video of the song is above this blog entry - if you care to hear (it's even better when you close your eyes and listen). Another great part about this song is that it's from my ALL-TIME favorite movie Amelie (www = well worth watching!!)...about a girl that see's the world from a different angle - which feels like me most of the time! A preview video is also blogged above - enjoy!
Best wishes on following your dreams/desires no matter what anyone else thinks! We only live once - so don't miss your opportunity to shine!
I am almost 30 and have just picked up piano lessons. Some may say I'm too old to learn piano (because they're too afraid to try), but I don't feel that way. I took piano as a child but would get bored learning sheet music - I preferred to just sit at the piano and play by ear. Being an introverted, self-entertaining type, piano was something I could sit and spend hours figuring out and I didn't need any help doing it (which was great for me since I preferred to hang out by myself...haha!).
My grandmother (which passed away in '94) was a pianist and loved showing me how to play songs. Frequently while at her house - when I wasn't "falling down the stairs" - I would just sit at her piano and figure out childrens songs by ear - no sheet music. I would just play what I heard in my head. When my grandma noticed that I was figuring out these songs on my own she decided to get me piano lessons. I was soooo excited! But when the teacher would show up and make me do chord after chord I got bored. So after a few months (I don't remember how long) I quit - now I wish I would've stuck with it.
Regardless, I'm back!! This time I'm sticking with it! Even though I'm back to playing very basic songs, it's nice to finally be able to read "some" sheet music again and play even simple songs.
My hope is to play Comptine d'un autre ete by Yann Tiersen (He's AWESOME!!) within the next year or two...we'll see. I would love to hear someone play it - live - for me - I would most certainly melt. A video of the song is above this blog entry - if you care to hear (it's even better when you close your eyes and listen). Another great part about this song is that it's from my ALL-TIME favorite movie Amelie (www = well worth watching!!)...about a girl that see's the world from a different angle - which feels like me most of the time! A preview video is also blogged above - enjoy!
Best wishes on following your dreams/desires no matter what anyone else thinks! We only live once - so don't miss your opportunity to shine!
Friday, June 6, 2008
Just Being a Kid...
It's funny remembering when I was a kid and all the things I did to entertain myself - I'm sure we all have funny childhood memories - here are a couple of mine (I could go on all day!)
Picture this...
Me and my sister (we were about the same age - step sister of course, not twins) were at my grandparents house in Michigan and we were trying to entertain ourselves since they didn't have any toys there - so we climbed to the top of the stairs and decided to come up with as many ways to go down the stairs as possible.
We take turns - we walk down head first with our hands, slide down on a blanket (somehow you'd always lose the blanket before you got to the bottom), scoot down on our butts step-by-step, etc. - then I'm up next to get creative and we've sort of run out of ideas - then I think "HEY!! I KNOW!! HOW ABOUT A SOMERSAULT DOWN THE STAIRS" - I quickly found out that the real name for a somersault down the stairs was called...
FALLING DOWN THE STAIRS!!!
So, I "fell" down the stairs - landed at the bottom completely disoriented (I swear little birds were flying around my head), and as I regain my focus my sister is standing there pointing her finger at me and laughing her ASS off!! So, to avoid even more embarrassment I went ahead and laughed along with her - needless to say, I've never done that again!
How about the infamous game of Hide-and-Seek!
MAN! I was the BEST hide-er in probably the entire 2nd grade!! One day me and my sister decided we'd like to play hide-n-seek - so we played a couple of rounds when it became my turn again to hide.
I thought "I'm gonna find the best hiding place in this whole house and she'll never find me!" So I start running around the house looking for that perfect place to hide while she's counting down - the stress is on... "8, 7, 6 , 5..." then I notice my dresser sitting there and realize that I'm small enough to squeeze underneath, and I think she'll never know to look there!
So, as I panic because she's almost to "1" I cram my head under the dresser, scraping the shit out of it (there were some artsy wood designs that had sharp points on them), and eventually got underneath - WOOHOO, she'll never find me! There were multiple times that I saw my sisters feet walk past me and just like I thought - she had no clue!
Then she decided she didn't feel like looking for me anymore (that's how AWESOME I was...haha!) so I started to get out, when I quickly realized I couldn't push my head back out (oh shit!). Then I think "how the hell ("heck" probably since I was in the 2nd grade) did I get under here, if I can't get out?...it must've been the stress of the countdown that made me work harder at it" - so then I start yelling for my sister to come help me out - and there she is again - laughing her ass off and pointing her finger at me...(do you see a pattern yet...haha!) Eventually I got out (somehow?).
But no worries - I eventually had the opportunity to laugh at her! It was when she decided to hide in the washing machine. She wrapped her legs around the center pole and sat indian style inside, then when she tried to pull herself out when I found her, she couldn't get her legs undone...haha!!! That was my time to point and laugh!!
Love ya sis!!
Picture this...
Me and my sister (we were about the same age - step sister of course, not twins) were at my grandparents house in Michigan and we were trying to entertain ourselves since they didn't have any toys there - so we climbed to the top of the stairs and decided to come up with as many ways to go down the stairs as possible.
We take turns - we walk down head first with our hands, slide down on a blanket (somehow you'd always lose the blanket before you got to the bottom), scoot down on our butts step-by-step, etc. - then I'm up next to get creative and we've sort of run out of ideas - then I think "HEY!! I KNOW!! HOW ABOUT A SOMERSAULT DOWN THE STAIRS" - I quickly found out that the real name for a somersault down the stairs was called...
FALLING DOWN THE STAIRS!!!
So, I "fell" down the stairs - landed at the bottom completely disoriented (I swear little birds were flying around my head), and as I regain my focus my sister is standing there pointing her finger at me and laughing her ASS off!! So, to avoid even more embarrassment I went ahead and laughed along with her - needless to say, I've never done that again!
How about the infamous game of Hide-and-Seek!
MAN! I was the BEST hide-er in probably the entire 2nd grade!! One day me and my sister decided we'd like to play hide-n-seek - so we played a couple of rounds when it became my turn again to hide.
I thought "I'm gonna find the best hiding place in this whole house and she'll never find me!" So I start running around the house looking for that perfect place to hide while she's counting down - the stress is on... "8, 7, 6 , 5..." then I notice my dresser sitting there and realize that I'm small enough to squeeze underneath, and I think she'll never know to look there!
So, as I panic because she's almost to "1" I cram my head under the dresser, scraping the shit out of it (there were some artsy wood designs that had sharp points on them), and eventually got underneath - WOOHOO, she'll never find me! There were multiple times that I saw my sisters feet walk past me and just like I thought - she had no clue!
Then she decided she didn't feel like looking for me anymore (that's how AWESOME I was...haha!) so I started to get out, when I quickly realized I couldn't push my head back out (oh shit!). Then I think "how the hell ("heck" probably since I was in the 2nd grade) did I get under here, if I can't get out?...it must've been the stress of the countdown that made me work harder at it" - so then I start yelling for my sister to come help me out - and there she is again - laughing her ass off and pointing her finger at me...(do you see a pattern yet...haha!) Eventually I got out (somehow?).
But no worries - I eventually had the opportunity to laugh at her! It was when she decided to hide in the washing machine. She wrapped her legs around the center pole and sat indian style inside, then when she tried to pull herself out when I found her, she couldn't get her legs undone...haha!!! That was my time to point and laugh!!
Love ya sis!!
Thursday, June 5, 2008
Forgot About Swings...
So, I went running last night and after about 2 miles I decided to walk for a moment while I passed a nearby elementary school. As I was passing by, a song called - "Just a Ride" by Jem came on (haven't heard it before). Then I notice that the song was saying "life is just a ride, it will always have it's ups and downs, and you can't ever get off" (which means a lot currently) - then at that exact moment I turned my head to the right with a numb stare, and as I panned to the right - BAM! my numb stare turns into one of feeling and my eyes get fixated on a set of swings standing lonely in the park.
So...
Randomly I thought, "I use to love swinging as a kid, I wonder if I still do?" So of course I had to try it out...haha!
So, there I am swinging on a swing, alone, facing the main street in the neighborhood (in other words tons of cars are driving by), and just about every car driving by, and every person walking by would take a look - probably thinking "look at that bored, lonely soul swinging alone at an elementary school park" or maybe they were thinking "look at that hot mama swinging on the swings"...haha!! - and so to drown out the people staring and driving myself crazy thinking about what they were thinking about me, I just closed my eyes, listened to "Just A Ride" and enjoyed the feeling of the wind through my hair - and the feeling of weightlessness. I had a GREAT time! Dorky, maybe? Don't care! Adults should swing more often, alone - it really is peaceful once you close your eyes and enjoy! Next time I feel like a need a little piece of mind - you know where you'll find me - swingin'!! (but in the back of the park this time to avoid all the people...haha!)
When's the last time you've hopped on a swing?
So...
Randomly I thought, "I use to love swinging as a kid, I wonder if I still do?" So of course I had to try it out...haha!
So, there I am swinging on a swing, alone, facing the main street in the neighborhood (in other words tons of cars are driving by), and just about every car driving by, and every person walking by would take a look - probably thinking "look at that bored, lonely soul swinging alone at an elementary school park" or maybe they were thinking "look at that hot mama swinging on the swings"...haha!! - and so to drown out the people staring and driving myself crazy thinking about what they were thinking about me, I just closed my eyes, listened to "Just A Ride" and enjoyed the feeling of the wind through my hair - and the feeling of weightlessness. I had a GREAT time! Dorky, maybe? Don't care! Adults should swing more often, alone - it really is peaceful once you close your eyes and enjoy! Next time I feel like a need a little piece of mind - you know where you'll find me - swingin'!! (but in the back of the park this time to avoid all the people...haha!)
When's the last time you've hopped on a swing?
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Living Life Through Music
Are you one of those types that relate all of your interests, emotions, dreams, motivations, happy-times, sad-times, and all other times in your life - to music?
I am.
It's facsinating how music can articulate your feelings in a way that arranges them in perfect order - like a puzzle, completed. I like all music (even the stuff you're embarrassed to say you know - like Miley Cyrus...haha!), but my favorite music comes from artists that use a deeper level of thinking and that create a beautiful picture of these feelings!
I've noticed that at different moments in my life there have always seemed to be a theme song.
1. In highschool I would say my theme song was "Sunshine Day" by the Brady Bunch probably because I was young and felt like I had a sunshine-type personality - at least that's what people told me;) So this wasn't too deep...haha! Shit, I was still a kid for God's sake;)
2. In my early adult life (16-20) my theme song was "Never Ever" by All Saints - had an a-hole boyfriend (the brainwashing young girls kind of guy) that used me as his doormat - and I was too young, nieve and nice to notice - well until 4 years later when I said "Peace Out A-hole!...good luck with your next young, nieve, nice prey!"
3. From about ages 21- 24 it was "Spend My Life With You" by Eric Bennett - because I got married at 23 and this song described exactly how I felt leading up to the wedding and during the wedding (and of course after too).
4. From about ages 25-28 there were a couple songs that were used as my theme, they were "Let's Get It Started" by Black Eyed Peas AND "What You Waiting For" by Gwen Stefani - I was focusing on motivation, exercise (running), becoming a better person in general. I was looking for any songs that created motivation - the "YOU CAN DO IT" type music. Those types of songs can move me for miles;)
5. My current theme song is "Wild Horses" by Natasha Bedingfield (she re-did this song, but it's awesome!). This song bascially takes my feelings and lays them on a platter for everyone to see and understand. This is the only song that can calm the pain in my stomach and head. Other songs that fit into my thoughts these days (on a more fun, day dreaming level) are "Into the Ocean" by Blue October (as you already know from an earlier blog I wrote), "Ticks" by Brad Paisley, "Save a Horse, Ride a Cowboy" by Big N Rich, (this just in) "Just a Ride" by Jem....basically anything that reminds me of who, and what is currently playing in my head.
So, what is your current theme song?
I am.
It's facsinating how music can articulate your feelings in a way that arranges them in perfect order - like a puzzle, completed. I like all music (even the stuff you're embarrassed to say you know - like Miley Cyrus...haha!), but my favorite music comes from artists that use a deeper level of thinking and that create a beautiful picture of these feelings!
I've noticed that at different moments in my life there have always seemed to be a theme song.
1. In highschool I would say my theme song was "Sunshine Day" by the Brady Bunch probably because I was young and felt like I had a sunshine-type personality - at least that's what people told me;) So this wasn't too deep...haha! Shit, I was still a kid for God's sake;)
2. In my early adult life (16-20) my theme song was "Never Ever" by All Saints - had an a-hole boyfriend (the brainwashing young girls kind of guy) that used me as his doormat - and I was too young, nieve and nice to notice - well until 4 years later when I said "Peace Out A-hole!...good luck with your next young, nieve, nice prey!"
3. From about ages 21- 24 it was "Spend My Life With You" by Eric Bennett - because I got married at 23 and this song described exactly how I felt leading up to the wedding and during the wedding (and of course after too).
4. From about ages 25-28 there were a couple songs that were used as my theme, they were "Let's Get It Started" by Black Eyed Peas AND "What You Waiting For" by Gwen Stefani - I was focusing on motivation, exercise (running), becoming a better person in general. I was looking for any songs that created motivation - the "YOU CAN DO IT" type music. Those types of songs can move me for miles;)
5. My current theme song is "Wild Horses" by Natasha Bedingfield (she re-did this song, but it's awesome!). This song bascially takes my feelings and lays them on a platter for everyone to see and understand. This is the only song that can calm the pain in my stomach and head. Other songs that fit into my thoughts these days (on a more fun, day dreaming level) are "Into the Ocean" by Blue October (as you already know from an earlier blog I wrote), "Ticks" by Brad Paisley, "Save a Horse, Ride a Cowboy" by Big N Rich, (this just in) "Just a Ride" by Jem....basically anything that reminds me of who, and what is currently playing in my head.
So, what is your current theme song?
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